Something dawned on me recently that I wanted to share with you: every single time fear has gotten the better of me, it’s been because I adopted a spirit of victimhood. I ran away, tried to hide, believed the lies that were being whispered in my ear, and gave my assent.
But every time I fought back — even if that simply meant standing my ground and refusing to cower — the fear immediately started to subside.
Fear has sorts of tricks up its sleeve to make you think it’s more powerful than it is (like a person who stands in front of a spotlight so that their shadow will appear larger than their actual person) but at the end of the day, fear is a coward. The minute that you turn and face your fear, launch a counter-attack, or simply keep walking forward in spite of it, is the moment that you gain the upper hand.
Maybe you’re reading this and thinking, “No, Hallie, actually I think fear is much stronger than I am. I don’t think I can face it and really, I’d just as soon prefer to curl into the fetal position.” To that I say: don’t underestimate your courage. Don’t sell yourself short.
If you’re scared about your child’s health/faith life/future/social life/academics and yet you hold their hand and walk forward with them, you are brave.
If someone has betrayed you and yet you continue to pray for them, you are brave.
If your spouse has hurt you and yet you keep your heart open to them, you are brave.
If you’ve been chasing your dream and the odds seem determined to stay firmly against you and yet you continue to believe, you are brave.
If God feels very far away and stays silent despite your pleas and you keep your face turned toward him, you are brave.
If you have social anxiety but still manage to leave your house every once in awhile and engage others, you are brave.
If everything feels very dark and scary and hopeless and you reach out to others for support, you are brave.
You are not a victim, you are a warrior. A brave, resilient, irrepressible warrior. A warrior with God on your side.
Be not afraid, for you were born to do this.