Have you ever made the grave mistake of asking God to teach you how to better practice the virtue of humility? (Wink.) And have you ever noticed how the minute the words leave your mouth, or thought crosses your mind, you can count on our sweet, merciful Lord to come sweeping in with all sorts of creative (and often painful) experiences designed specifically to make you more humble?
I’m finding that a similar thing is true if you endeavor to write a book about overcoming fear. God will make absolutely certain that you a) practice what you preach and b) aren’t tempted to write a book full of empty platitudes.
Since signing my contract, I have:
- hosted the Edel Gathering at 40 weeks pregnant in a hotel that lost water (and occasionally AC) the weekend we were there
- given birth unassisted in my bathroom (unplanned, I assure you)
- launched a new program with my husband that required us to step out in faith and take a huge financial risk
- battled a seemingly endless stream of illnesses including pneumonia, bronchitis, and a double ear infection
- (almost) finished writing an entire book with a newborn babe in arms
These things scared me. Some of them scared me quite a bit, actually, and I didn’t always handle them with as much grace as I would have hoped. At first, I was really hard on myself. Who are you to write a book about overcoming fear, Hallie, when you continue to feel fearful yourself?
It’s easy to think that once God has taught you a lesson (or even many lessons), you’re good to go. No more stumbling and falling for you! But the truth is, the greatest lesson we will ever learn is that without God, we are dust. Stardust, maybe, but dust nonetheless.
I’d stumbled once again because I was trying to put the lessons God has taught me into action without uniting them to God’s goodness, mercy, and power. I had forgotten that faith that conquers fear depends on absolute trust in God.
I imagine that even at this very moment, God is asking you to do something that scares you. Maybe he’s asking you to surrender some security so that you might grow closer to him. Or perhaps there is a gift you possess that he wants you to share with the world. Or it could be that he needs you to courageously bring something dark out into the light.
Whatever it is, don’t let your fears stop you. That we will sometimes be scared in this life is a certainty. But with God, we can also be brave.
Take courage, sweet friends!
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